Last weekend I lost my shit. And for the first time in my life, I'm not scrambling to find it again. My ducks are NOT in a row, and I'm just fine with that. I'm not OK, and I'm learning to be OK with that. A little backstory: for the past four years I've been experiencing what you might call a mystery illness. My thyroid numbers are all on the low end of normal. I produce cortisol, but not in the reliable daily pattern that I should. My sex hormones are a hot mess. I experien